There's nothing worse than sitting alone [OPEN]

[pandora hearth]

It wasn't often you found Pandora alone but it had been happening far too often lately for her liking. She felt.. almost empty. Maybe it was the fact she was working so damned hard at school now. Or maybe it was the fact that she was getting a lack or sleep. Yes, it was both of those things. There was one thing that was truly making her feel like this. Her relationship with Sebastian.

It used to be fun. She loved him, and she still did, but now the relationship just wasn't as good as it was. Sitting down on one of the benches in the garden she looked around her. The snow had melted from the rain, the pristine white beauty had gone. How apt. She thought. Once that short moment of magic is gone - it reveals the ordinary underneath. Pandora held an acoustic guitar casually in one hand. She placed it over her legs as she further looked around. This school had changed her so much. It had killed her inner bitch, made her happy and in-love but now. Now. What had happened? She'd turned weak. That strong teenager had been crushed by everything around her.

Taking in a breath, she began to strum at her acoustic. Feeling weak had to be her worst thing. It bugged her to no end. It wasn't long before she had a tune going with the guitar. Opening her mouth, she let out the words and began to sing "You don't want me, no, you don't need me. Like I want you, oh, like I need you. And I, want you in my life. And I, need you in my life" it wasn't often that Pan would write this kind of song. But the lyrics were just forming so fast in her brain, and they were right. "You can't see me, no, like I see you. I can't have you, no, like you have me. And I, want you in my life. And I, need you in my life" she sung softly, still strumming her guitar. The lyrics displayed her insecurity, so in a way she hated it, but the song was so true. She decided to sing one more verse, praying that no one was around to see this side of her. "You can't feel me, no, like I feel you. I can't steal you, no, like you stole me. And I, want you in my life. And I, need you in my life..." she stopped playing as her song ended.

Oh, what a mess she was in. This wasn't right. It wasn't normal. How on Earth had she turned into this. Sitting on her own, writing love songs. Placing her guitar beside her, she brought her legs up and hugged them. It was cold out here but for once she didn't care. What was the point? A little cold wouldn't kill her and this dark, gloomy weather matched her mood. She hoped that she'd find a ray of sun to break through the clouds. She couldn't afford to feel like this. It'd mean turning back into the girl she was. The bitch that scorned anything good in the world. It was something that she didn't want to become again.

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Notes: the song is You by The Pretty Reckless~ 
Words: 540
Credit: Chloe!

[persephone pritchard]

cba to do outfit::profile::418 words::notes: Oddly nice Percy is oddly nice.

I was still absolutely baffled as to how the school managed to fit every single pupil onto its grounds. I was used to so much bigger - this was a postage stamp. It was a wonder that everyone was able to come here for the day, let alone as a boarding school. I had made a point of visiting each of the towers to assess the sizes of each and, well... there was a lot to be desired. A. lot.

Sighing softly, I burrowed slightly deeper into the coat that I wore, trying to fight of the bitter wind that attacked any bare skin. The snow had all melted now, leaving the lush green of the grass that I thought would never meet my eyes again. It was also warmer than it had been a while ago. Still chilly, but warmer. It all meant one thing. And one thing only. Spring, which I had been awaiting for months on end now, was finally on its way. Something that made me feel much better about the way the world worked. After such a bitter period, the sun would always shine through.

I shook my head, clearing it of such thoughts. Ugh. Sentimentality. I hated it so very, very much. It distorted one's perception of the world, and some of the awful things that occurred in it. However, my tensed body relaxed when strains of a stringed instrument sounded in the chilled air. It sounded calm, soothing, even a little... well, a little melancholic. And then the voice, the voice. I knew that voice. The first time I heard that voice, I detested it. But now? It... I do not know... It soothed me slightly.

And then I saw her as I wandered past where she was sitting. I was walking behind the bench where she was sat, so that her back was to me. I had a feeling that she did not know that I was there. So, after the final strum of the instrument in her hands had faded into silence, I swung my body into the bench next to her, and applauded. "Now, that," I began, "was much more pleasing to hear than what I heard the first time. Job well done, I must say." The song had sounded rather... well, sad, though. So... "...Uhm...Is there anything that you would like to.. discuss?" I could not get past how strange that sounded, considering I had hated this girl's guts the first time I met her.

[pandora hearth]

The song had managed to soothe her slightly, but not by much. She still felt pained. That horrible, knotted feeling in her heart had not gone away. Singing that song had, in fact, made it slightly worse. The song had highlighted to the girl just how pained she was. As she hugged her legs, shielding her body from the cold, she thought about him. About how he'd changed recently and by doing so, how much he had changed her.

There was only one word for his behaviour. Asshole. And she didn't mean that nicely either. He had been acting like a prick; she was sick of it. How she missed the days when he was happy. When they were happy. In those first few months, it had been wonderful. But now he doesn't give a shit about you. Now all he cares about is damned cases and curing his boredom. Her thoughts caused her to become slightly angered. That anger was halted, however, as someone dropped down beside her and started to clap.

Pandora turned to look into eyes almost the exact shade as her own. Persephone - her twin sister. At her words, a ghost of a smile passed over he features. Oh yes, the first time her twin had heard her music things had turned bad. And Sebastian had saved your life. A small voice in the back of her mind gave her that information. Yes. He'd been nice then. He had loved her but now? Now she didn't know. Sighing softly, she pulled herself out of her thoughts as her twin spoke again. Of course. It wouldn't take a genius to work out that Pandora felt like shit. Heck. She'd been singing a love song. That was your biggest clue. Did she want to discuss it? She didn't know. Pandora was a private person. She didn't like to tell everyone her troubles but maybe, just maybe she could trust her twin.

Sighing again, she then took in a breath as she began to speak. "Oh God, where do I begin. Thanks, I guess, for liking the song. Wish you hated it though. Last time, I ended up close to death. God, that seems appealing" she told her twin. Those moments were still so fresh in her mind. Then again, it was not something one forgot. She still was so thankful to Bree. That girl had truly saved her. Sebastian, however... Without him.she wouldn't be here. Oh, how confused her heart was. She was sad at how much the relationship had changed. She was angry at how he was acting and she was filled with so much longing for how they were.

Deciding to actually tell her twin about her thoughts, she tried to just organize her thoughts for a second. When she was capable of some kind of logical speech, she began. "Well, you know I'm dating Mr Holmes? Stupid question really. Everyone seems to know. I'm the girl that's screwing her teacher and getting away with it" her voice began to crack ever so slightly but she ploughed on "we used to be happy. You know, in love and all that shit but it's all changed now. I don't know whether it's something I did.. but he's changed. I just feel that maybe he doesn't, y'know, love me as much as he did. Or as much as I love him. Hence my song really..." she stopped as she felt stinging in her eyes. She wouldn't cry. She was going to stay strong. Crying wouldn't get her anywhere. It'd just ruin her makeup and then further show people that something was wrong with the witch.

Finally unwrapping her arms from around her legs, she let them drop to the ground. How she hoped everything would turn out okay. She just couldn't imagine being without her arse of a boyfriend. Occassionally, a brief thought would run through her mind. Telling her to break up with him - to spare herself from feeling like this but she couldn't. To end the relationship would just kill her. He was the key to her happiness now. When she was with him, she felt as if nothing could harm her. Unfortunately, that feeling of insane happiness was leaving her. The more he acted like a dick, the less happiness he brought her and the more she just wanted to end what they had before she grew too attatched. But that was something she knew had already happened. She had fallen absolutely, unconditionally in love with him.

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Tagged: Perrssyy! 
Notes: Naww, nice twin time 
Words: 755
Credit: Chloe!